Thoughts

Just a thought when i woke up this morning

Let's take a few steps back and see the bigger picture

life is so much more than just ourselves
so many of us are getting so caught up with ourselves that we refuse to stop and take a look at others and us

I thought things were different, things which were in the past and a new beginning was in this year;
but they turned out differently in the end..

It's not that i did not expect it, getting some look of it last year, but i chose to ignore it and give the benefit of the doubt.

guess things work out the way they're supposed to in the end.


another revelation was that what we put in is what comes out of it
i have loads to learn from others' optimism and perseverance

SNA's got talent finals are just a few days away
I really am getting nervous
But all I know is that

if we win, we praise God; if we lose, we praise God.

...that's all I can say...

School..

I now left with 18 more days to

Final exams

..

1st paper: English
2nd Paper: A.maths

!!Wow!!

As my secondary school life draws to a close,
I can't help reminiscing the past years I went through in this school,
Singapore National Academy (SNA).

I recalled the time when we first created our band

"Girls United"

(G1)

. At that time we were still secondary two and a new music teacher came to teach in our school, Mr. Chris. I remember how harsh I fought with the teacher mr. Chris, how I hated him so much at that time. Remembering this now, makes me wanna laugh. :)
At that time one of us almost threw a shoe to him. To all the members of G1, "Do you guys still remember?" :p

A lot had happened since I first came in to SNA until now. There are a lot of beautiful memories. Sometimes we also fight, but I learned that fighting is also a way to know about someone even deeper, knowing about them more and more.. :)

Time past so fast..
Suddenly, it's the last year of my stay in SNA.
This is the year which defines a person, test one's willpower and self-discipline.
This is the year in which we graduate.

I know that we will go on separate ways in just 2 months time. But I know from the deepest of my hear that memories of my beautiful, wonderful 4 years secondary school life will never be forgotten from my head. I really have a great time with all of you guys... :)..

..I'll definitely miss u all..

New hope.. :)

After leaving my room in a pile of mess for i don’t know how long, i decided to start packing my room this morning. Well, it’s always interesting to go through the pile of mess created and find some items that you thought you had lost or had already forgotten, still existed.

I was cleaning up and down, in and out of all the drawers. I found my "love letter" from my parents last year. It truly was so different to read it again while knowing what they were told to do. But i definitely will never forget the moments in camp when I read all these and wrote the letters back to them. I know my parents are the parents who have given me so much over the years. Even though they’ll never get to read all these, i just want to say that i really love you all.

I then came across with all the notes and photos from camps that I've joined since I was a participant till I am the coach. Reminiscing all those past times, I remembered everything that was said to me by my coach, Joey, about life and to believe in myself and hold onto my dreams. I realized that I haven't been doing the right thing this past few months. I can't believe just by cleaning my room I can actually find new hope for my life. LOL.. :p

My room is wonderfully clean now. I just want to refresh my mind for the mean time, before I get back to my usual school life when school starts tomorrow.. :)

Term 4..

With my daily routine, I sit down with my schedule to plan for the upcoming week. As I am staring at my schedule with all the school schedule too. I realized I have to face all the extra things to do... sec 4 is coming to an end... I am scared of the things that are coming. Expectations towards myself are getting higher and higher each day. I am not sure.. Am I able to reach it myself though I am the one who set my own expectations?

Do I trust my ability? I am really not sure.

This term, I need to put in extra effort than before to make sure things work out for me. With extra things to do also means that I must stop playing and take things more seriously now. Seems like this last term in my sec 4 is a lot of hard work for me. Final exams are coming in 5 weeks and O level will soon start in a few months time.

I do not know why my confidence level seems to drop quite a lot when I am looking at the things I have to do for school and waiting for what's coming up for me after I graduated from SNA and move to Singapore to prepare for my O level.

What should I do now? My confidence... I hope there is a pill that can help to pull up my confidence a bit more... Now, I just hope that I can do well in my studies and I will not put too much stress on myself which I usually do..

I think I shall sign off now. I need to go to bed. My head is really killing me right now...